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7 A.M.

20170401_192908About to be the 3, 5, I’m laid up with teenage fever.

Feeling like Janet Jackson without the safety of a pre-nup

Our roads, different, we ran on petrol and diesel

Our roads different, supposedly Adidas and Asics,

Drumming our bases, we found laces/ electrifying connections like both worlds were tasered

Face to face we were a fumbling fortress of ferocious fondness

Maybe I’d been chasing Amy or maybe Gin met Tonic

See London at 1.30 birthed 7am in Germany

Had to check mate like we were head to toe in Burberry.

The bucket list met a vision causing intercontinental collision

Audibly adrenaline was all the way up, like it was a day of ascension.

There were starry eyed smiles brighter than Borealis,

The aura of sharp shooters turned battlefields to gardens

How do you spend time with someone and feel like you’ve left with a bargain?

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A. D. L. D

We arrive as a flash point, late on my time line. 

I’m tongue-tied by your outline. 

Like tour bus based buffets

The taste of your lane is scenic 

Could Morpheus love the Phoenix 

Are angels ever fiendish? 

Do butterflies ever get butterflies? 
Seven syllables make you and I 

Our cloudy memory lanes are filled with melodies of the 6

We are Barry and Iris on a Badu tip 

Is it common sense that I want you? 

Shhhh 
You are the voice of napalm singing Psalms 

Every note that leaves you is a lip bomb

Would I adore you be a call to arms? 
You know this is  more than a shuffle of the cards. 

Pepper and Tony Stark 

You’re queen of the odd shaped drum that gives my life a base 

I go Gaga for your poker face 

Is this bad romance? 
I know that 

The 18 steps of our slow dance lack symmetry 

Settling for smaller planets is withering 
You fall for what’s within 

So straight up, 

Your open skies are the needle for my turn table 

Every record you spin opens a book of revelation 
Though multiplexes mapped contact, this is free smoke. 

A road to the after glow found in the clouds 

Running touch lines since our first down 

Will two lasting embraces strike this match? 

Call this time’s greatest catch. 

Are we? 

A delayed story? 
 

 

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The End

I’m in love with….I could never finish the sentence
My regrets roused rancorous desires for regression
I was colour blind as the red flags flapped,
I felt so fly, the fact that I didn’t, feels impressive.
My ego was bedded by this boo as the crowd roared us on.
Economical with the truth about either of us being The One
We phoned in that blue light to the brain as though we were seeing
the sun.
The great depression was 3 rings away from speaking up.
Green was never my shade, yet blue was our colour.
We called a spade a spade while digging crates and graves for each other
To tolerate through desperation seemed a better vow than to love each other.
Desecrating the legacies of Father, Father and Mother.
Who we fancied remained a secret that not even mirrors could fathom.
If we get on, let’s see where it goes was the best chestnut, adage
We thought we had our onions in order so we ignored the sage.
This was a fools buffet, eat now and pay later
Needed more time to date but….
We were less diligent than a fan of James Yancey
Pilot of Aaliyah’s plane on an incredible flight of fancy
If you do best at a certain altitude, why lower the standards?
If our mutual anchor had matched us, the candle position was shifting.
If walking through hell was our job, we seemed fire resistant.
We did what was expected and found some return on the investment.
Blurring the burning yearning for affection with friendship.
The words house and mate were, for the most part, unconnected.
 The moment we took the breath away, I became we, with love in a sentence.
Now if this is a confession to someone who cannot give penance.
What are we to do with the fragments of our reflections?
We end.

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Goodness, Gracious, Me

As clocks tick,
boxes dip
Another click
A buttoned lip
Eyes shut
The solemn drips
Loosening grip
A name that slips
Away
They
All want us to kneel
Accentuate real
To hurt and to heal
To birth and to feel
Their pain
Again?
They want to us to feel
Their pain again
They want to us to feel
Their pain again
Where is outrage
They want the grief front page
Publicity umbrage
They’ve got it so flaunting
Dead sons aunts and.daughters
Yet I’m getting bored of
This game
They want to us to feel
Their pain
They want to us to feel
Their pain again
How can this be real
When told what to feel
Not sold on the deal
For real
like being force fed a cake
That I didn’t bake
They wants jaws to ache
Whole souls to be raked
Yet my soul is being raped
By choices I didn’t make
How many addicts do you need!
For your sympathies
I’ve no blood left to bleed
Or place for my feet
With that left for me
I barely can be
So please comprehend
I cannot pretend
That I truly stand
With all and hold hands
As
Grief stans for yours
My release could be raw
Yet I know for sure
You’ll be exhausted to Stan
All mine

 

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Rain of the Damned (Collab w/ Destiny Equality)

You make me nervous with emotions
that have my head spinning
love is quickening like an overdue foetus within my womb
labour pains from insanity clinging to dear life now
you call me an emotional leach a puppy begging for scraps
something synonymous with the clap
scabs come from fine g owning up to my faults
i don’t bargain with the devil even if i am evil according to her
these hurt feelings go deeper and i can’t be found
for me i am too far gone 2b proud even if the volume is loud
~
You sliced open my vein with your vanity
The cult of insanity panic filled piety
Anemic desires ride the wave of my red cells
No white flag for this war of contrition
Iambic bells ring in my grey matter colouring my meter
Sheltering my necrosis,
My cries peter out for the hand that beats me as it feeds me
I’m a fiend for the fight and bite
Can’t always be a designer light
I yearn for a refining sight, an injection of a lighter plight
A flight of fantasy with out plans to dismantle me
So many spit bars, simply to manhandle me
Am I star or just a rock passed around by the bulls
Precipitating lakers I burn from the glare of green and red eyes

~
I am impaled with hurt feelings angels with tainted wings
tainted stains of embezzlement there is no turning back
there is no justice always orders of chaos eons go onward
that seem appealing unimportant non withstanding
mentalities that are as strong as lizards tongues
small changes and frail refrains what have i become
since vanity is my defaulting reality players become revolting
after all snitches get there throats slashed
and nice guys finish last
some can exacerbate on this
here fate which is tainted with hate
make sure when you come
come correct i expect these feelings to endure
its a war of words a heart unheard
kicking rocks at dirt with measured worth
spurts of rainbows become halos with flames exploding
eroding the essence of expression second guessing
what we wrap around the truth

~
Yet your lies stand up ass straight in a bed of knives
Cut in the dead of nights cursing the day break
Me off at the roots cos all I have is black thoughts
Rolling like credits through my movements end game
They mutter like hidden scenes, their refrain is in their pen game
Breaking the rules of pengagement its time I married the sonic boom
Got some guile in this moment to break the legions of doom
It’s like I’m wrestling a butterfly with a lizard tongue that only wants to kiss me
I long to bloom without the act of diss me till I miss me

~
there is a tidal wave of purging
asinine regurging almost verbatim
go on an hate on me while i hate on you
i know a jewel you will never have the currency for
the wickedness thinking you know it all
all you do is fall quicker then humpty dumptys walls
think i would get caught up call my bluff
7 years of bad luck don’t combine
with 7 years of no dick
you wish you had that opposite purity
so relationships become cumbersome
just to get an injection of his erection
bitch butch touch the flame is it hot enough
could you distance yourself
some just flipflop through ageless time warps
no recourse in these forms
its always these bad feelings that keep me waning

~
The way your framing this you’re fraying
Random aiming, Donkey braying,
Too much time on your knees but ain’t no muslim praying
Monkey see monkey do so call it Tarzan Janing
This melodies unchaining, remedy’s enslaving
Diana car crash live, my memories en-graving
Yeah I know I come for some
Heart heavy call it cumbersome
Dark mood ejaculation fcuk me I’m a come for sun
Bend it over till it moons make it toss my ballad
Watch green eyes roll and call it tossing salad
You floss, your haggard, drop your scabbard
Life’s a game and a dance I will not be daggered
Murked by your machina muerte
Call it the sound of a mud hound as I sniff out earthly
Pretenders to my place and among the celestial
No longer the bestial
For too long have these kickstands masqueraded as pedestals

~

too much cruelty in this bitchass reality
it sits sourly upon my stomach
too much heartache that can plummet
call it a summit a novelty were used too
love seems cowardly when everyone is nervous
heartless cougars brutally shed tears at playboy years
time is up amongst pyramids and kings
bloodstains on white sheets virgin beats
while HIV runs itself ramped in the streets
its chaos with poetic crayons
get strung along the way love
while players play with guns and shoot
never finding there way to the roots
thinking its cute to hold hostages
its preposterous at this point
but who cares to hear from
dark clouds that fall down
since we all do
hurt feelings…

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Click Me

 

And wink and hi

And wink and hi

Let me find a date tonight

And wink and hi

And wink and hi

Click yes, Click yes I like your picture

I think you fit the bill so I’ll just click here

Sent you a message hoping you’ll reply

But while I’m waiting for a response I’ll wink and hi

2 hours have gone and it’s becoming evening

Checked my sent messages hoping that you’d seen it

I’ve got my email ready for receiving

I tailored your message just so you could see me

Really! From the subject to body intelligently touchy feely

Hope to jump the queue for you and I to be we

Acquire a taste for me like I was kiwi

But I guess there’s plenty of fish and we’re all at sea right

So ok cupid I’ve got no reason to cry I

Just wink and hi and wink hi

Wink and hi and wink and hi

Oh damn your cleavage is heaving and your so seductive

Baby I’m a producer lets get reproductive

School me in the art of you I want to be instructive

Those pictures aren’t exclusive why should I think my lucks in

I’ll only take you to bed if my loves tucked in

I don’t care for the places you want to be touched in

So pardon the interruption I just want a conversation

And know I’m not member of the canine nation

I’m prepared to be patient and my game is tight

Why start a conversation if you’re just being polite

Nice guys get ignored so it’s back to the drawing board tonight

I just wink and hi and wink and hi

Wink and hi and wink and hi

I like your profile I’d really like to meet you

Tell me where can I reach you

Here’s my real name for Facebook can I be in your news feed?

Be your change of status just to put it loosely

The random guy on your wall with the funky witty lines

Oh you didn’t have a paid subscription to read all that?

Sorry I’ve already clicked to the next picture

I wink and hi and wink and hi

Wink and hi and wink and hi

And oh hi didn’t I see you on some other site

Same picture slightly tweaked information

If you’ve not replied to my message guess there’s no chance of a date then

So wink and hi and wink and hi

 

Yo Cupid your arrows must be dull or you’re just slow in your role

I’m trying to make love happen were you not told

There’s a girl of my dreams I know she must be near so

I’ll keep clicking and winking cos I’ve lost the fear of rejection

But I keep attracting weird hoes and victims or picky seekers of attention

Nice guys have to wait longer, that’s something you forgot to mention

And the decent ones on paper seem to struggle with attention retention

Do I need to join the dog on heat convention to get a woman with more sass

I feel like the red button, people press for a break from and normal broadcast

Can’t ignore your past and I’ll have learned from mine

But while I’m not with you let me edit my profile design

Try to figure out how to get that girl online to only love mine

And wink and hi and wink and hi

And wink and oh I want to meet 250 people…thats a whole lot of chats over cheeseburgers

Word up! All this winking hasn’t furthered my cause

Maybe it’ll be 300 times lucky if not a different site or a school of seduction course?

Erm maybe I should..wink and erm may be I should learn a dance or get some muscle

Yet with definitions of manhood I care not to tussle

I can be your fuzzball, cutie and protector

If I upgrade my subscription to life maybe there’ll only be one affection collector

Someone with enough class that makes my grade feel high

And she’ll be the only one with that wink and hi

 

 

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Feelin it

I will yield to your depth of field.
Get in focus, be your soldier if you’ll be my shield,
its oh so real,
I move by how I feel, thought propels my wheels,
right through the night examining ideals
Driving safely
my soul guides me daily
I’m not an amateur, you open up my aperture,
Fill it with the light my heart reflects it back at you
eternal sweet like a pack of chews
I’m mellow yellow like Pikachu
Poked this man to take a peek at you
Liked the picture now wants to stay in reach of you
Never wants to breach the truth
Hopes what you see reflects what he sees in you
You’re food for thought girl let me season you
Heat you up, in and out of season too
Life wont give a season two so lets write one script
We’ll make it a great old record but only if your feelin’ it

If your feeling it you’ll have a reason why
If your feeling it, it wont hurt to cry
If your feeling it, don’t let it pass you by
If you’re feeling it lady lets fly

Verse 2

I want exposure to, all of you, photosynthesize

Water truth, fall in you,

Lady let me take a dive

I don’t want to ring and ride,

Stay living in your frame of mind

Keep your manual focus I want to see how you’re wired

To be inspired, baby it’s my duty

To bask in your beauty, hoping the composition suits me

Your tune be fruitfully a currency I’m bought with

Like apples of the orchard, we’re ripe to move forward

If you’re feeling it, more than 50 first dates,

I’ll squeeze your mind for juicy lines but leave your body off the plate

Cos when I’m feeling it, we’ve got time to take

Create the bind in our mind then blind love to make

I’ll eat the cake you bake, because I’ve got the cream

Hustle hard to keep your sunbeam and live the dream

Flow and never run out of steam, my dream is to walk through the clouds,

You know I can’t walk on water but I’ll figure out how

If you’re feeling it

If your feeling it you’ll have a reason why
If your feeling it, it wont hurt to cry
If your feeling it, don’t let it pass you by
If you’re feeling it lady lets fly

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